THE CHAPTER FOUR BLOG

Questions? You can ask me anything ... just not anonymously.  

"I'm not even an atheist so much as I am an anti-theist; I not only maintain that all religions are versions of the same untruth, but I hold that the influence of churches, and the effect of religious belief, is positively harmful." - Christopher Hitchens in Letters to a Young Contrarian.

"When fascism comes to America, it will be wrapped in the flag and carrying the cross." - Sinclair Lewis

“Religion has ever been anti-human, anti-women, anti-life, anti-peace, anti-reason, and anti-science. The god idea has been detrimental not only to humankind, but to the earth. It is time now for reason, education, and science to take over.” - Madalyn Murray O'Hair

Creationism: The belief that Kirk Cameron knows more than Stephen Hawking.


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Eòin - Painter and government employee. Writer, photographer, pitbull wrangler, devourer of books and films and knowledge, gardener, hesitant self-taught cook, and brave little traveler. People say I should have been an archivist of some sort. I think I should have been a paleontologist - I’d be out digging right now. I have always had rescue dogs and you can see two of them throughout these pages.

Recently divorced after fifteen years. Still figuring out the life that follows. Over three decades, I lived in Seattle, San Francisco, and then Manhattan - now I make my home in rural New England. I like the quiet. I like the forest. I like snow in the winter. I like growing my own broccoli rabe. I like buying fresh, local goat's milk cheese.

This is chapter four.

andybrwn asked: How's Ernie?


Answer:

Ernie is seven joints high and running on his walks. We have x-rays tomorrow and a drainage of his second (!) hematoma.

Both dogs: Verge of death and then skeedadaling.

I just make sure all three of us are breathing when the alarm goes off

— 11 hours ago with 8 notes
#andybrwn 
I still get to wake up to this every morning.
Sleepy old moose.

I still get to wake up to this every morning.

Sleepy old moose.

— 1 day ago with 12 notes
#Titus  #Titusaurus  #dogs  #my dogs  #old dogs  #pitbull  #pitbulls  #sleepy old moose 
"YOU BRING ME DOWN, OH CHILD."

Slept to my singer/songwriter playlist and not Titus’ favorite church music. Sorted by album. Swordfishtrombones (“Rainbirds”) was just fading out as the alarm sounded. The Tallest Man began as I was standing there in my boxers trying to open my eyes. There he was. Greeting me as I tried to greet the day. Good omen after the darkness of the last couple of days?

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Well it’s a season of thunder and a season of rain
all the little angels are growing wings of pain
and I see no point in asking there’s no point of return
when I steal his rings well I know I’ll have to burn

He said, “You bring me down, oh child.”
I ain’t gonna walk the line

And I will fly through the lightness when the thunder will strike
all tomorrow’s parties will dance before my eyes
and I will scream like an eagle when I fly ‘bove your house
just to bring salvation to peasants and their wives

He said, “You bring me down, oh child.”
I ain’t gonna walk the line

Well I see Jesus and Judas making love now of course
and all the roman emperors hanging up their horse
and I see no point in landing I see no need to learn
from the day we lifted we know we’ll have to burn

I said, “Please don’t shoot me down.”
I said, “Please don’t shoot me down.”
I ain’t gonna walk the line

I feel the arrows and bullets they are combing my hair
and all my feathers falling so slowly from the air
and from the speed on my body earth will pile up my bones
from a little skull oh just a little whisper comes

He said, “You bring me down, oh child.”
He said, “You bring me down oh child.”
I ain’t gonna walk the line

— 2 days ago with 7 notes
#The Tallest Man On Earth  #Kristian Matsson  #Walk The Line  #new day  #music  #4:45 AM Monday morning 

handsomedogs:
Pebbles
American Bulldog Mix • Young • Female • Medium
PetResQ Ohio Lagrange, OH


An then, of course, there’s this one.
Very Titus-ey.

handsomedogs:

Pebbles

American Bulldog Mix • Young • Female • Medium

PetResQ Ohio Lagrange, OH

An then, of course, there’s this one.

Very Titus-ey.

— 2 days ago with 1020 notes
#pitbull  #pitbulls  #PetResQ Ohio  #Pebbles  #dogs  #not my dogs 

awwww-cute: He wore his new boots today and was the most popular dog on the trail!
f0rtylegz: I’m rebloging this for Eòin (thechapterfourblog) because if he sees it, it might make him smile.

The funny thing about this adorable picture of this adorable dog in his adorable hiking booties is that Ben sent it to me in email about 18 hours ago, which was like the fourth time he’s ever done that.

awwww-cute: He wore his new boots today and was the most popular dog on the trail!

f0rtylegzI’m rebloging this for Eòin (thechapterfourblog) because if he sees it, it might make him smile.

The funny thing about this adorable picture of this adorable dog in his adorable hiking booties is that Ben sent it to me in email about 18 hours ago, which was like the fourth time he’s ever done that.

— 2 days ago with 34823 notes
#pitbull  #pitbulls  #dogs  #not my dogs  #dog booties 
Just, wow.
Idris Elba is so fucking beautiful he makes my eyes hurt.
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Photo credit: Details, September 2014.

Just, wow.

Idris Elba is so fucking beautiful he makes my eyes hurt.

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Photo credit: Details, September 2014.

— 2 days ago with 12 notes
#Idris Elba  #most beautiful man on Earth 
DARK 3.

At the same time, though, french fries still exist out there in the world and are easily accessible.

— 2 days ago with 12 notes
#mental illness  #french fries  #dark days  #dark clouds 
DARK 2.

The thing about mental illness, and I’ve said this before, is that even on the best days it is always present. It’s always there. You feel it, and you are reminded of it constantly.

When you take your meds in the morning. When you feel the effects of the meds throughout the day. When you keep quiet after someone says something like, “So-and-so must be bipolar,” and hasn’t the slightest clue what she’s talking about. When you can’t tell people who have power to make decisions over you that you recently spent 37 days in a “mental health facility.” When you feel the side-effects of the meds. When you see the side-effects of the meds. When you can’t remember how to tie a tie or how a belt works. When you can’t basic answer questions about your divorce in even the most casual of settings. When you start to feel the anti-anxiety meds wearing off. When you take your meds before bed.

And then there are the bad days. When you feel like you’re never going to get out of that place. And god forbid there is an actual panic attack. Then you feel like you’re dying, sometimes for hours.

But that’s the thing, isn’t it? You never are getting out of that place. This place. The place where you are aware of your chronic illness(es) every minute of the day and you know it is / they are never going away. Where you are aware that even with the best treatment it is / they are progressive. Some days that can be the worst part of all.

— 2 days ago with 18 notes
#mental illness  #mental health  #bipolar disorder  #anti-anxiety medicine  #mood stablizers  #dark clouds  #dark days  #chronic illness 
DARK.

I probably shouldn’t say this publicly, but the world surely does look dark today. I know it will be better tomorrow, or hopefully will, and even better the day after that, but today? Ugh. It needs to be over.

— 2 days ago with 15 notes
#dark clouds  #dark days  #mental illness  #mental health 
"Regarding dreams: When you wake up from your nap there are people who simply no longer exist and their faces fade into oblivion so rapidly. In your dreams people can be the kind of people real people should be, even only a short while."
Except for the woman who squeezed my fat and told me I am ugly. She can go wherever dream people go.
— 2 days ago with 8 notes
#dreams  #my dreams  #people in dreams 

The profound ignorance …

… which is why I’m tagging you, michelebachmann.

— 3 days ago with 23 notes
#evolution  #human evolution  #evolutionary science  #Michele Bachmann  #ignorance 

Another Pearl Drops Tooth Polish commercial.

— 3 days ago with 2 notes
#Pearl Drops Tooth Polish  #Tina Turner  #commercials 

This was a favorite commercial of mine when I was a wee lad.

— 3 days ago with 6 notes
#Pearl Drops Tooth Polish  #commercials 

One more post for all you fresh-off-the-boat fans.

— 3 days ago with 8 notes
#ancient Chinese secret  #Calgon  #commercials 
THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL OLD.

Jane Seymour is this month’s cover model for the AARP magazine.

Cyndi Lauper recently turned 61.

A post entitled “Things I Wish I’d Known In High School” references texting.

— 3 days ago with 16 notes
#feeling old  #Jane Seymour  #Cyndi Lauper  #texting